I grew up reading some scriptures without understanding them. And then I started disbelieving everything saying where is God. i cannot see him, I cannot feel him so I do not believe him. I had a friend also whom I love a lot at that time and she supported me in that. To be her friend I had to follow her atheism. My mom was so worried because she is a very religious lady.
But then life happens and we face it. Things started changing. I stepped out of home and faced the world. I would not say atrocities or harsh realities because now, I understand everything comes in a package. So I faces what was there and I realized, for everything i was praying. Which made me realize, even if I disbelieved, I believed and I wanted someone to help me. I realized I was talking inside me with him. I realized, he was always there. I could not see him, I could not touch him but still he was there. Then I started reverse questioning. Who is doing everything. Who created me. Who created everything. Who is taking care of the entire system. And every question lead to one answer, God. he is everywhere and in everything. or let’s say, he is everything. But then why are bad things happening? Its like when The Earth turns it’s face away from Sun, it has night. When we turn our face away from God, we see darkness. It depends on us, where we want to look at.
When I started realising his presence, I realized his love. I saw his love in each and everything and then everything appeared as miracle. Everything is a miracle. How a leaf is designed, how water falls are made, how the entire eco system works. How one thing is working to support the other thing. And we also know how all the Panchtatvas i.e. air, water, earth, fire and ether are working. How we are an integral part of each other. How we are made up of these Pachtatvas. How we just know it that when we would wake up there would be sun and fresh air for us. How plants will be there to give us fresh oxygen. How they will produce fruits for us to eat. How everything will be there to take care of us. But then who is taking care of us behind all these things. He loves us so much that he is doing everything without even telling us. And we can feel that love. It is like a child can feel mother’s love without the mother telling it everyday.
And this love somewhere compels us to do good things and also I think this love compels him also to make things better for us. He is making things better for us everyday.
he is there, taking care of us, guarding us, protecting us. Just by saying please take care of my family, we know he will do that. Who else can be more loving and what else can be more miraculous.
Thank you God!
