Do you think of any of these things?
I deserve to be unhappy
I can never be happy
What have I done to be happy
No one wants me to be happy
Happiness is just an illusion
I have had my share
It’s not my age to be happy
And many similar things like this.
Whatever you think in conscious mind is communicated to subconscious. If you keep telling yourself in one or other way that you can never be happy, you will be never be happy then as this is what you wish to. You wish to be happy as by human nature we believe that no one wants to be unhappy. However, you have been telling your mind about unhappiness so this is what stays and you live unhappily. You will keep coming across incidences which will make you further unhappy and affirm your thought of being unhappy. Even the people you would meet will induce further unhappiness in you as this is what you think so this is what you attract. If you think of negative words, your mind accepts the negative instructions, subconscious only follows it does not rationalise. So you need to stop thinking of all these things.
You deserve to be as happy as you think the happiest man on this earth can be. Whatever may be the past, you do not have to punish yourself in present. Your ordeal ends the moment you decide. The theory of Karma follows you as you have been letting it follow you. You keep telling yourself, I am guilty of doing so and so, so I cannot be happy, so stay unhappy. That’s the theory of Karma.
I would say:
“Believe that you deserve to be happy to be actually happy.”