Few years back, I was going through really tough times. I am glad I went through that phase. These are the times which make us stronger, keep us grounded and make us who we are. But during those times it is very difficult to stay motivated. So I was hating myself, I was hating myself and I felt everyone hated me. People used to say things, sometimes they would make us feel little better and sometimes they would totally break us. The things which do not matter otherwise, mattered a lot at that time. Things which people say out of love and concern but are expressed negatively had maximum impact. I could not see love behind all those things then but I can see it now. So after months of such low phase and praying and surrendering inside one day I got up. It was like I realized by sitting like this and cursing myself, I was committing a slow suicide. Did I want that? Giving up on life is like a suicide. Did I want to die like that? So I got up and went to the bathroom. Somehow, this is the first thing we do. I washed myself. I realized I did not like myself. Everything was dawning upon me. So if I did not like myself, how would others like me? And all this time, I was waiting for people to like me unconditionally. Did I like myself unconditionally? So why to put that burden on others? I washed my face, made hair, dressed better and told myself you are looking good. Then went upto everyone asked same and they said the same. Then I went again to the mirror and told myself I love you no matter what. Out came my mother and said the same thing without asking. It was an epiphany! People were reflecting my feelings. People were reflecting my thought process.
That’s when the real journey started. I knew I had to fall in love with myself unconditionally. I knew I had to tell same to myself. And everything started falling in place. I could get back on my feet within few months and really started loving myself after that.
Love is the biggest motivator. When we love someone, we are ready to do anything for that person. Then let’s start that from the person we have ignored so much. I love me! I am loved! I love everyone! Life is beautiful with all the love inside and around us. We need to harness that love and value the gift of life.
