One gentleman was crying. He said that he hadn’t slept for years. Few years back he did few things which he did not realize at that time, how bad they were. Now, when he realize he can not sleep. While crying, he said that God must hate me! I am so bad.
Somehow, in his tears, I could feel how much pain he was going through everyday. I do not know how it came but it came. I told him, God loves you and he never hated you. You do not need to do anything to get his approval or love. Because he created you. He never left you. He is always there.
But then why did I do such bad things? That was your decision! Sometimes, we have to choose between light and darkness and we need to have own experiences. Even to experience love, we need to experience lack of love too.
So what shall I do now? Do what you want to do now, rather than feeling bad, how bad you had been. Why are you feeling bad? Because you hurt someone or is it the fear of future? He cried again and shared that because how bad he had been and how much he had hurt others. So what should he do? So more than God, it is your own guilt. Now to handle that, do things which would make you feel better. Instead of feeling bad, start doing things. There was a sweet shot near by which he could see. He immediately bought a box of sweets and distributed to the kids on red light. Kids were laughing, eating, and thanking him.
He came back and I asked him how do you feel? He did not say anything but I told him, you just made God very happy. Those kids were still laughing as we could see from a distance. However, it was for himself because God was never angry. The point is can we survive God’s anger? I guess no. So he is never angry. He just loves all of us in every shape and size.
He is there and everywhere. Know that and you would feel him!
