This situation comes so many times in life. You decide also so many times, however, things do not happen the way you want them to be. So many times we aren’t strong enough to implement own decision and get weak and then we feel helpless and sometimes we are not bold enough to raise the voice and bear the things silently.
Then we blame the situation or the others, however, the truth is if we would have dared a little bit, if we would have asserted, if we would have affirmed ourselves, things would have been in much better shape and according to us. You need to out grow the fear of ifs and buts. Life is one of the most beautiful thing which can happen to anyone and it gives us ample opportunities to be happy and be the one which we want to be, however, which our timidness, we lose those and blame destiny. However, instead of finding the reason where you can blame someone else, you should find, how you can be in charge of your life. Because in actual you are the in charge but you let others to be in charge, however, you forget to others also you have only given charge. You make decisions, only you.
Do not feel helpless, feel strong and be yourself, decide for yourself and affirm it.!